40 Posts in 40 Days | Day 2

You Are Not an Accident

Originally Written August 18, 2009

Point to Ponder:

• I am not an accident.

Question to Consider:

• Knowing that God created me for a purpose, what areas of my personality, background, and appearance do I need to accept?

So... coming at this as a seeker. Assuming I'm NOT an accident - a fluke ofthe universe - why am I actually here? Does my life matter, in the cosmic sense? It's the Freebird Postulate: if I leave here tomorrow, would you still remember me?

Obviously I know in an immediate sense that yes, my life matters. I have a great marriage and a beautiful baby daughter and great friends. But as yesterday's topic contends, it's not about me or even my immediate circle. The purpose examined today is bigger than all that. Were I to accept as basic fact what's being presented here - and I feel that I'm getting closer and closer to doing so - why am I here? What part of the overall plan am I supposed to be playing?

Just yesterday, I was listing what I feel to be a key component of my personality - my constant desire/need to learn everything there is to know about a topic - as one of the biggest stumbling blocks to growing my faith. Now today it seems that this quirk of my personality was actually put in place by God, to suit some other purpose I'm supposed to be fulfilling. Paradoxical.

If there's a resolution to this, I can say with certainty that I don't see it. Either I'm going to accept that it's OK to accept something profound and life-altering without fully understanding it, or I'm going to suddenly wake up one morning knowing with full faith the meaning of life, the universe and everything. (42.) And while I think the former is more likely to happen than the latter, at this point in my quest I don't feel a great likelihood of either.

So maybe this resolution, assuming it does come to pass, will be the purpose I'm supposed to fulfill. There are certainly many people in my "sphere of influence" who also don't know God, but who think of me as a careful, rational and overall pragmatic individual. Were I to suddenly show up utterly transformed (like so many people at Quest) they would all certainly have to notice. Maybe my purpose is to be an illustration of what can happen...

Verse of the Day

""I am your creator. You were in my care even before you were born."

- Isaiah 44:2 (CEV)